Friday, March 09, 2007
I've moved.
http://imhaysville.livejournal.com/
That's syahmi inverted. See ya.
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10:37 AM;
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
"I don't like the way we're taking this..."
I don't really understand why I get this feeling.
This stint of anger and frustration.
This feeling of helplessness and sadness.
It's not big. It's barely noticeable when i spend time with you.
But it gets bigger when we're quiet and silently contemplating what to say next.
And after we depart, when i take my steps up the bus while you look on,
my heart aches. I squirm in my seat as i look upon the window.
I notice you've diverted your attention to the road, crossing, not looking back.
And then, nightmare begins.
A euphoria of emotions sweep through my entire being, making me so sick in the stomach.
I begin to slouch in my seat and my heart sank miles further.
Why am I feeling this way? Didn't we spend enough time together?
Weren't we enjoying ourselves just a few hours ago? I asked myself.
Unaware that the answer was a simple "I think I'm not good enough for you."
Issit so unpleasantly true that I don't even trust myself?
It's not you. It's just me.
Hey love, if i ever once hurt you, I'm sorry.
I will be the best I can. Giving you everything i can.
And everything that's worth fighting for.
And that's you baby. YOU.
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11:19 AM;
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Officially, today was the first date that i have with Hunny Bunny.
And what a blast it was! haha!!
In other words, me was spending the whole day with her since 12.30p.m. all the way till 10.30p.m. Wohoo!!
We went to Marina Square and squared around the whole area before having Dinuch (that's word for dinner and lunch put together).
And for once my dad ain't blasting at me! Hahaha..I think i'm gonna sleep smiling..haha..
Toodles!!
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1:38 AM;
Thursday, February 22, 2007
"If there was one thing I like about you, it's only because I don't know you that well."
I recently realised that i like to do things on impulse.
And i enjoy it way better than having something planned out for the day.
Like how i'd suddenly agree to go town when my friends suddenly ask me about it.
Or how me and Ganesh would meet up for our trips around Singapore using a street directory.
But if there's on thing that I didn't do on impulse and i'm enjoying thoroughly now, it's YOU.
My HUNNY BUNNY.
On the other hand, I've had instances where I regret.
Such as insulting someone for the sake of fun.
Or calling names and making fun of them.
Or making use of someone. Using them for my own gain.
And then, making them look bad in the process.
I'm so sorry to all of them.
Yet, when i see them outside, i don't dare to go up and say sorry.
And to all, I'm really really sorry.
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2:00 PM;
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Ever had a day where everything you planned, straight from the time you're awake to the point where you are gonna lie and rest in bed for the day goes horribly wrong?
Coupled that with the fact that it's your birthday and your girlfriend's away..
Vuola! Welcome to my 18th birthday!
I'm soo not gonna elaborate on the day's happening but yarh, that was practically what happened. And I'm sick to the stomach that my mum says that it was quite a good day...HUH?
Is she kidding me? or perhaps SHE had a great day, not me.
Of course, why wouldn't she, when she's out to the beach and eating ice cream at swensens. And the fact that she had my dad for company.
Haiyo..Hunny Bunny wasn't around..or I would have spent the whole day with her instead..
...Moving on...let's talk about floorball...
Is it just me, or did someone actually went to tell coach about that thing?
God, can you people just shut up and i'll do the one on one talk.
I seriously don't need someone speaking up for me about a certain matter such as this.
Luckily i managed to explain or i'd be dead meat by now.
Anyway, Pasirian is good and if i wasn't in TP, i'd have gladly stay.
Please, i didn't say i regret.
It's just that it looks so attractive playing with people like Hadi and all.
And i was from Pasirian. And the atmosphere was super fun.
Haiz......nope, not complaining...
Hunny Bunny, remember the song "The Rose"? The whole time i couldn't manage to get you the whole lyric and I'm a shy singer. At least i'd have a chance to post it here instead. Enjoy~
Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love, it is a hunger
An endless, aching need
I say love, it is a flower
And you, it's only seed
It's the heart, afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream, afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It's the one who wont be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dyin'
That never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong
Just remember, in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed, that with the sun's love
In the spring, becomes the rose...
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1:57 AM;
Thursday, February 15, 2007
What do chubby chumps and strawberry cupcakes have in common?
They're both cute and cuddly. Haha. Guess i might be updating my blog again.
And ya, Happy belated Valentines. Haha.
And to the four ladies, thanks for that group date. Haha. If we can call it a date.
But it was fun. And really cool, the fact that we walked around the whole airport to finally settle with Burger King. Haha.
Loves to all! haha..
And the flower's blooming.haha.
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10:56 AM;
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Im in love.
Wooohoo.
And I can't stop smiling.
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12:42 AM;