"I guess I'm not enough for you..."

How can i put it?
Everytime i ask you a question, it was because i wanted to know you better.
And everytime all i get from you is an answer that will only break my heart even more.
Maybe, it's coz' you don't know how much you mean to me.
I needed someone when i was down, and that was when I found you.
And since that day you lighted up my life.
Your corny jokes, your laid back attitude and simply, everything about you.
Even if it's something ugly or wierd, it still felt significant to me.
And because of that, I'm afraid to say that you are more than just friends to me.

Yesterday i finally master the art of cooking spaghetti.
Haha. So next time, I'm gonna try cook for all my friends.
And after the game at ITE Simei, i really had to look into myself and find out what's wrong.
Maybe I'm too serious. Or maybe I'm too tensed up.
I'm not gonna go into the details in any case.

Today, i took the initiative to lead the training when Farid was late.
I was afraid there'll be mixed receptions from everyone.
Luckily all of them were ok with it.
Even Cedric helped me out with the drills. Hahaha.
Later, went to Roxy Square to cut my hair.
Don't ask why so far coz i just followed Remy since he recommended it.
Skali bila dah sampai, tada, saloon la.
No wonder it's like 14 bucks per person.

Yesterday, talking to Miss Burp actually reminded of me talking to Kakak last time.
Luckily I didn't turn emotional. Haha.
And Miss Burp, I'm glad t have a friend like you.
I may not be as important to you as you are to me, but i will always remember how you'd brighten up my day even though it's at night. Or early in the morning.
I know I've never mentioned it to you, but it's true.
I can have the worst day of my life on a Monday, or Wednesday or the other days, but you'd always be there to cheer me up. Thanks.
And the fact that you understand my situation with my dad and Miss 3-years + makes you even more valuable to me.
OK, I shan't get too carried away.
Hahahahahaha. Happy watching Prison Break.

P.S: How long are we gonna continue like this?